Where have you been?

Seriously, where have i been? i haven't blogged in the longest time, and i guess I've forgotten how much fun it can be. well, i suggest you hold on to your hair pieces folks, because this is going to be a bumpy ride. I definitely have WAY to much to write about, so i might not include it all in this one blog, due to the fact i'd be here for 10 days. First of all, i lost yet ANOTHER friend. lovely right? me and this girl have been friends since second grade, and even though we moved away, we kept in contact. and when i mean "kept in contact", im not talking about a mushy letter every now and then expressing how much we miss eachother. No, i'm talking about chatting it up on the phone every single night for atleast 5 hours a night. AT LEAST. "Golly gee Danielle, that sounds like a strong friendship you got there!". BULLSHIT. i thought of this girl as a sister, and all of a sudden, my sissy starts treating me like a worthless piece of shit. Not only did she invite me to her party, ignore me, and tell me to go hang out with her mother instead of her, she also bitched me out in front of her friend (and this was a totally different day from the party) and made me look like an asshole in front of some girl i didnt even know. Yeah, i forgave her for the party, and then a week later, she does it all over again. Ofcourse i still love the girl to death, and ofcourse i miss her like crazy, but is it really worth it? she'll be all nice in the beggining, and then BAM! her bitch switch gets turned on and im screwed. Now, i'm also not trying to play innocent here, because i bitched right back at her, and my words were probably more hurtful then hers. But listen, you better know who your messing with, because if you mess with me, i dont take your shit, i call you out on it. I do apologize for saying what i did, but i was heated up and angry. i believe everyone knows how i am when im angry. Anyway, that friendship is wrecked, and even though i should be really upset, im not. Even though that friendship ended, another friendship became stronger from it. As i cried that day, my best friend natalie really showed she cared. She could have just left me alone, and ignored it, but she didnt. We were in a pizzeria, and she kindly took me to the bathroom to calm me down, and then took my phone, and texted my "ex friend" for me so i wouldnt have to deal with it anymore. After that was done, she told me I didnt need that other girl, because i have her. And that right there my friends, is perfection. She really showed me she cared that day, and i feel so grateful for that. OH MY GOD, SPEAKING OF THAT! guess what else my best friend did?!?! well, lets just say some girl called me fat, and lets just say natalie took care of it for me. like, how much better of a friend can she be? I LOVE YOU NATALIE! lmaooo. other than that, there's been a whole lot of other shit going on in my life. between family drama, love, my future, and everything else thats been bottling up inside, i'm ready to explode. Thank god for my friends, because without those wonderful people, i'd have no one to talk to. I really can't stand my household anymore, because everyone in it is miserable. That's why im leaving for a week or two to waunder upstate new york. LOVELY! no mom, no dad, no stepdad, no brother. what more can i ask for? oh thats right, I GET TO SEE MY COUSIN! me and my cousin michelle are the only ones that understand this family. but besides family problems, i can open up to michelle about anything, and its going to be great to spend some quality time with her. speaking of that, i think i'm going to pack right now! well, chao for now you cool cats (: peace&love